Four years ago, following a long battle with a severe prescription drug addiction, Jessica took her own life. She was one month shy of turning 23.

The last thing Sarah ever said to her was, “I hate you and wish you were dead.” Like most sisterly bonds, theirs could be turbulent. The pain of this last exchange kept Sarah bound to her bed for months, guilt-ridden and depressed. Her own trauma was worsened by watching her parents fall apart—her father cried every morning, while her mother suffered from recurrent nightmares.

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